Bad news! The result wasn't as what was anticipated.
我很忿怒也很茫然，不知道该何去何从！此时的我就好像一只迷路的小白兔。。。。。 怎么这样啊！！！ 天啊！这种惩罚太残酷了吧！！！ 怎么办怎么办？？
Feeling lost now......
Monday, June 30, 2008
5 hours to go......
In another 5 hours or so, it will be the time to unleash all misery and a time to announce everything is finally over......
How Do I Feel?
Like a big stone pressing against my heart... you can say worried, you can say excited, you can also say feeling blank...
What Do I Need Now?
Stabiliser... Encouragement, Support...
A lot of things kept flashing into my mind, I can't stop thinking about the outcome and what eventually will happen.
In short, this few hours of waiting is no joke, hate this feeling and hate the feeling of waiting for an answer which you do not know...
...... Good Luck To Me! Be Brave! I Can Handle It!
How Do I Feel?
Like a big stone pressing against my heart... you can say worried, you can say excited, you can also say feeling blank...
What Do I Need Now?
Stabiliser... Encouragement, Support...
A lot of things kept flashing into my mind, I can't stop thinking about the outcome and what eventually will happen.
In short, this few hours of waiting is no joke, hate this feeling and hate the feeling of waiting for an answer which you do not know...
...... Good Luck To Me! Be Brave! I Can Handle It!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
What would be the outcome?
In less than 24 hours - the results. From the much anticipated 20th June 08 it then killed the anxiety and waited patiently till the 30th June 08. Having kinda weird feelings though, dunno how to describe but all the memories of the incident kept flashing back into my mind....
To begin with it would be 26 Aug 06, 4 Jul 07, the 27 days and finally tommorrow! There are bad times and good times, surprises, anger, happiness, sadness etc... along the way. But whatever it is, I had gone through it and counteract it. Now its the time to see what results I will attain.
I had a good dream few days ago, the result is encouraging.... and it explained what my lot has to say which truly enlighten me! Well, let's hope the dream turns out to be the truth......
Tommorrow would be a mystery to me and I do not know what I will fill up here......
Wish me luck! Blessed me!
To begin with it would be 26 Aug 06, 4 Jul 07, the 27 days and finally tommorrow! There are bad times and good times, surprises, anger, happiness, sadness etc... along the way. But whatever it is, I had gone through it and counteract it. Now its the time to see what results I will attain.
I had a good dream few days ago, the result is encouraging.... and it explained what my lot has to say which truly enlighten me! Well, let's hope the dream turns out to be the truth......
Tommorrow would be a mystery to me and I do not know what I will fill up here......
Wish me luck! Blessed me!
Saturday, June 28, 2008
“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass… It’s about learning to dance in the rain” (author unknown)
I heard this quote on a show about autism and realized how powerful it was. So many people facing adversity have unrealized dreams (writing a book, starting a business, getting healthy, etc…. what’s your dream?) They’re waiting for things to be perfect before they start on THE big project.
As an ADHD adult, you know things will never be perfect. Heck, if you’re human, things will never be perfect. You’ll wait your little heart out if you’re looking for perfection. It’s not going to happen, and in the meantime, you’re missing an opportunity because you’re putting the cart before the horse.
That “big project” you’re planning (after the storm has passed of course) may be just the motivator you need to improve your life. That big project or exciting goal will often give you enough energy to resolve the very issues that are holding you back.
Are you waiting until you get organized, learn to manage your time, improve your finances or overcome your tendency to procrastinate? You’ll wait a long time. But if you go ahead and start, if you get excited about what you’re doing, you’ll have the fuel you need to resolve those issues and more.
Don’t wait. Dig out your umbrella, put on your rain coat and set out on your adventure. You may be surprised to find that while it is stormy where you are, the storm will pass, and it’ll pass faster if you’re moving forward.
Once you start your project, you’ll be far more motivated to get your “s**t together” and learn to better manage your money, your time, your relationships, yourself… The road won’t always be smooth, and you may stumble from time to time, but when you set your sights on an exciting objective, you’ll have the energy to get back up and get over, or through, any obstacle.
Are you waiting for the storm to pass? Come dancing!
Saturday, June 21, 2008
...... 30 June 2008
下午1.45抵达目的地。从来没有感觉脚步那么沉重过，好象每一步都踩着几十斤。 等了15分钟，突然有这戏剧般的改变。 原来啊日起改了不是今天！延迟到6月30日了！
当时我的感觉是，还真糟糕！他们是怎么办事儿的，还会有点生气。哎，还要熬多10天。真讨厌啦！ 不管怎么样，可能事情并没有想象中那么坏吧。 我今天问了上师，要怎么消除业障， 他说你现在念的金刚萨踱就已经可以啦。顿时让我想到我还得念完40万遍的心咒哦。难道真要我完成这40万遍才能消障碍吗？是巧合还是冥冥中自有安排呢？突然日期改了！而且还有10天的时间。
不管怎么样，我尽我的能力完成这40万遍，回响众生回响四川地震落难者及灾民！
等待的感觉自然不好受，自在点或需也能逍遥些！
当时我的感觉是，还真糟糕！他们是怎么办事儿的，还会有点生气。哎，还要熬多10天。真讨厌啦！ 不管怎么样，可能事情并没有想象中那么坏吧。 我今天问了上师，要怎么消除业障， 他说你现在念的金刚萨踱就已经可以啦。顿时让我想到我还得念完40万遍的心咒哦。难道真要我完成这40万遍才能消障碍吗？是巧合还是冥冥中自有安排呢？突然日期改了！而且还有10天的时间。
不管怎么样，我尽我的能力完成这40万遍，回响众生回响四川地震落难者及灾民！
等待的感觉自然不好受，自在点或需也能逍遥些！
Friday, June 20, 2008
择善固执
还有4小时就有结果了。现在的心情有点紧张也很平静。应该说很矛盾吧。。。
择善固执 - 就是要相信，坚守善行。有了这4句似懂非懂的词句，显然对我有所帮助。忽然间觉得其实结果怎么样并不重要而最重要的是我的信念还在。只要相信一切是对的，我又何必去执著于结果呢？参透了这句词的确让我平静多了。 本来像个求学的女生紧张等待考试的结果，现在告诉自己结果不重要，最重要是相信。
我已经坚持到了今天，我还是要继续坚持下去。而现在我只好以平常心去面对所有的结果。倘若这些是我应承受的，我接受。。。
择善固执 - 就是要相信，坚守善行。有了这4句似懂非懂的词句，显然对我有所帮助。忽然间觉得其实结果怎么样并不重要而最重要的是我的信念还在。只要相信一切是对的，我又何必去执著于结果呢？参透了这句词的确让我平静多了。 本来像个求学的女生紧张等待考试的结果，现在告诉自己结果不重要，最重要是相信。
我已经坚持到了今天，我还是要继续坚持下去。而现在我只好以平常心去面对所有的结果。倘若这些是我应承受的，我接受。。。
结果是什么呢？
今天对我来说是复杂的一天吧。Mixed Feelings.... lost, excited, happy and blessed.
我今天到双林寺祈福了，希望这一切能快点过去，有好的结果，就像签上所说的“動合无咎”。 你说我不担心那是假的，你说我不在意那也是假的。其实我很忧虑虽然好像真的没事但是实事又会是如此吗？我不是法官，我也无法想像他的想法是什么，一切只有听天由命了！
今天也正好是我侄女到纽西兰升学的日子。一家到了机场乐融融之后也到了海边。是不是一味这我将重获自由呢？ 可能我真的想太多了，变神经衰弱了。
明天我有会在这里填上什么呢？...... 祝我好运吧！
我今天到双林寺祈福了，希望这一切能快点过去，有好的结果，就像签上所说的“動合无咎”。 你说我不担心那是假的，你说我不在意那也是假的。其实我很忧虑虽然好像真的没事但是实事又会是如此吗？我不是法官，我也无法想像他的想法是什么，一切只有听天由命了！
今天也正好是我侄女到纽西兰升学的日子。一家到了机场乐融融之后也到了海边。是不是一味这我将重获自由呢？ 可能我真的想太多了，变神经衰弱了。
明天我有会在这里填上什么呢？...... 祝我好运吧！
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
第92签-上上签
今天求得一只上上签。一切会真的如签上所言吗？ 拭目以待，真诚的希望一切如意。
观音灵签:九二签
吉凶：上签
典故：蔡卿报恩
宫位：酉宫
解签:
诗曰
自幼为商任设谋 财禄盈丰不用求
若是双身谋望事 秀才出去状元回
诗意→此卦自小为商之象 凡事勤俭无忧也
解曰 自小至大 无阻无碍 作意营谋 功名顺遂
家宅→安
自身→泰
求财→顺遂
交易→胜
婚姻→合
六甲→生男
行人→动
田蚕→半收
六畜→旺
寻人→见
公讼→胜
移徙→如意
失物→在
疾病→即安
山坟→大吉
故事
蔡卿报恩 (蔡邕)
蔡卿即蔡伯喈 上京赴考 其妻赵五娘
因家贫以糟糠果腹 乡邻张广才时加接济
蔡伯喈中了状元 回家得知其妻获张广才相帮
夫妻便到张家拜谢 并赠银两
詳解：
此籤有”擇善固執”之意。提醒當事人，凡事相信。人們最大的痛苦，莫過於對人性產生了懷疑。因為凡事疑神疑鬼，自我的內心開始築起了高牆，擔心被騙、被 利用而受傷。但是，處處防著別人，凡事都過度小心、過度猜測的結果，不但於事無補，反而只會讓自己越來越神經質；而你回應給別人的不信任感，別人同樣也會 回報在你身上。與其因為懷疑而產生更大的痛苦，還不如凡事包容、凡事相信。事情沒有那麼複雜，是人的心使它複雜。保持一顆赤子之心，相信人性本善，以真誠 待人，包容厚道，人生何處不逍遙。
观音灵签:九二签
吉凶：上签
典故：蔡卿报恩
宫位：酉宫
解签:
诗曰
自幼为商任设谋 财禄盈丰不用求
若是双身谋望事 秀才出去状元回
诗意→此卦自小为商之象 凡事勤俭无忧也
解曰 自小至大 无阻无碍 作意营谋 功名顺遂
家宅→安
自身→泰
求财→顺遂
交易→胜
婚姻→合
六甲→生男
行人→动
田蚕→半收
六畜→旺
寻人→见
公讼→胜
移徙→如意
失物→在
疾病→即安
山坟→大吉
故事
蔡卿报恩 (蔡邕)
蔡卿即蔡伯喈 上京赴考 其妻赵五娘
因家贫以糟糠果腹 乡邻张广才时加接济
蔡伯喈中了状元 回家得知其妻获张广才相帮
夫妻便到张家拜谢 并赠银两
詳解：
此籤有”擇善固執”之意。提醒當事人，凡事相信。人們最大的痛苦，莫過於對人性產生了懷疑。因為凡事疑神疑鬼，自我的內心開始築起了高牆，擔心被騙、被 利用而受傷。但是，處處防著別人，凡事都過度小心、過度猜測的結果，不但於事無補，反而只會讓自己越來越神經質；而你回應給別人的不信任感，別人同樣也會 回報在你身上。與其因為懷疑而產生更大的痛苦，還不如凡事包容、凡事相信。事情沒有那麼複雜，是人的心使它複雜。保持一顆赤子之心，相信人性本善，以真誠 待人，包容厚道，人生何處不逍遙。
Sunday, June 15, 2008
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