1st post for 2009!

牛年即将来临了。有什么展望呢？ 我是希望一切坏的赶快过去，让我重新开始过我的生活！

The date ｈas been fixed for 6th March 2009 - Friday. I'm having mixed feelings about the whole thing. Within this short span of time, can I really settle what needs to be done? Guess there are alot of plannings to do. Cos no matter what was put to me, I am still not thinking of the positive side. I must be prepared for the worst. Yesterday, someone not very closed to me revealed that I was on propaganda and send me the link to it. Shit man! with my face also! I was so affected by the whole damn idiotic thing. But after a while, I thought to myself, what's done cannot be undone, no point getting affected by it. 轻者自清！I dun have to bother what opinions ppl will have on me as long as my conscience are cleared. Who cares?

The next couple of weeks will be a hectic week for me, I better start planning my work and settle whatever needs to be settled and not be panic at the end of the day.

Recently I sensed that something is going wrong in my body. I dunno what is it, but they were signs of pregnancy. It is hard for me to believe it as I am having PCOS as diagnosed by 2 docs before and if I am really preggo then its a miracle. I did a test last sunday but it turned out to be negative. I am not sure if I should test again this week. I am happy if this is really a miracle for me, but on the other hand, I　ａｍ　ａ　ｌｉｔｔｌｅ　ｄｉｌｅｍｍａ，　Ｉ　ｗａｎｔ　ｉｔ　ｂｅｃｏｓ　ｈｅ　ｃａｎ　ｓａｖｅ　ｍｅ　ｏｒ　Ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｗａｎｔ　ｉｔ　ｂｅｃｏｓ　Ｉ　ｗａｎｔ　ｉｔ？Ｔｈｉｓ　ｉｓ　ａ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｓｔｒａｎｇｅ　ｆｅｅｌｉｎｇ　Ｉ　ａｍ　ｅｘｐｅｒｉｅｎｃｉｎｇ　ｒｉｇｈｔ　ｎｏｗ．

不管怎么样，只希望一切平安就好了！祝福大家一切安好！