I still have 20 days to the grand finale. Its a mixed feelings though, hmmm... the happy thing is yes finally its over but the sad thing is if things dun turn out the way I hope to be then it would be another episode.
I am quite lost as I do not know wat to expect in me and I need alot of strength to carry on and carry out all needs to be prepared this 20 days. Its really a very heartache episode as the moment you think of all the negative thoughts tears would start rolling on.
我天天念佛念观世音菩萨，希望他们能给与我加持度我度过这场难关。我为我的贪念真心做忏悔，因为这件事我也付出了惨痛的代价。名誉扫地，生意失败，破产，天天要提心吊胆等等。。。。。。我今天突然有种想法，如果这些都是我的果报我接受，如果这些能换来偿还我一时的贪念我愿意承受。只求佛菩萨大发慈悲原谅弟子，让弟子度过这一场难关，帮助弟子顺利上诉，我愿一心一意真心修佛永不再犯。
这是我的愿望我的心愿希望能达成。而我最放不下的还是我可怜的老公。这些日子因为叔公的事导致整个人气脉不顺，全家都认为他疯了。如果我不在了，我真不知道他一个人怎么面对。我也没办法留什么钱给他，因为自己也身无分文，真不知道该怎么办。
我一定要有信心，相信佛菩萨的力量帮我度过这场难关！一定要！
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